It disgusts me that I need to be claimed by another man in order for other men to leave me the fuck alone.
This guy that I went on two dates back in July. Yeah, I know that was six long months ago. He always randomly messages me/texts me/communicates with me. To see if we can rekindle what we never had. and each month I respectfully decline. And Finally today when he i didn’t hear from him in a couple weeks, he texted me again. And out of anger I texted him saying “leave me the fuck alone.” he texted back saying “Nonsense, lets grab dinner, my treat”. After I said “No.” He kept texting back as if this was a challenge. I’m not a fucking game.
I texted him back saying. “I’m in a relationship and we’re exclusive. You need to stop.” I deleted the text thread from my iPhone and I haven’t gotten a reply from him.
I really didn’t want to resort to that. I fucking hate that reason. It’s the least important one. I mean no because I said so. It’s so disrespectful. I’m a bit angry with myself for having to resort to using that as a clutch.
In the past I’ve said no, and said things like: “I’m saying no because I don’t want to.” He just never fucking listened.
I’m really upset at myself. I know I shouldn’t be so hard on myself. But I just can’t believe I needed to use that as an excuse to leave me alone.
I really hate feeling objectified, even though it was a big part of my past.